Thursday, April 23, 2009
who really knows? everyone has their separate opinions... but these opinions are never set in stone. Love is constantly altered and circumstances are always changing because love itself is about making a few comromises for the person u care about the most <----so i've heard. not onlyyyyyy that but there's so many different types of love ! including the most dreadful of them all : unrequited love. i could go on and on for days about what i think about love... but the truth is... i'm still desperately trying to figure it out. until then ....
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
lol . but that's how it makes yu feel .
to say you love someone , in my view , is saying that yu will do anything in your power to keep them happy. it's to be a rider for your mate . it's like .. not knowing exactly where you are going or where yu are headed , but if your with [name goes here] then you don't care about anything else . it's wanting to have that person with you every minute of the day , but sacrificing that bc you don't want to get tired of them . lol . but when you truly love someone , you can't get tired of them . its everlasting like that damn energizer bunny . love to me is like .. to stop living in the "what if" stage. that .."what if he leaves ? what if he cheats?". love is forgetting all of that and trusting your mate that they will never ever do anything to hurt yu . and on the other side , love is assuring that person that you will never do anything to hurt them . because think about it , if you live in the "what if" all your life , you will never get anything done ! if i say .. "what if i get shot as soon as i open my door?" , nigga i would NOT go outside . lol . and if yu live in the What-If w. ur partner yu will never experience love. and yu WANT to experience love, trust me . although its sometimes a cruel and unfair thing, it's sooo f*ngg beautiful . =]
love will getchu kill'd ! lol jk . well kind of . i just feel like no one really knows what love is . love is the exchange of spiritual understanding and trust . trusting someone else to have your heart is a big deal when its real . its basically a gesture that states that 'i am putting someone else before my own well-being' . selflessness is a vital ingredient in the recipe for love . most of the time, people get their heart thrown in a blender because the person they loved did not love them back . you give your all & get nothing in return ... an empty feeling .
for thee record, sex does not get you loved. it gets you screwed . lol . i neeeeed people to stop mixing up the things that love entails. its not about sex . its not about the things he buys you . its even about the things he says ....its about his actions . nothing is wrong with making a man prove his honesty. his trustworthy personality. his selflessness. love is not a race. its about taking the time to get to know someone . it should be based on friendship first & foremost . never let a boy tell you that he loves you but he cheated . he loves you but he put his hand on you . im not saying he doesnt love you, but im telling you that its not the kind of love you deserve .
i have seen what true love looks like. im not sure if it still exists though . between all the myspace, facebook, twitter, blogging, and AIM . its pretty easy for people to slip up . its pretty easy for people to move on . its produced a whole new breed of generation ...
you know what , imma finish this on my blog ... haha ! chow .
man... the one that affects me theeeeee most ! we allllllll know that i'm a sex addict and damnit lust is going to be the death of me i swear. sex is like the most fulfilling feeling i have yet to see. lust forces me to judge guys on appearance and nothing else. yeahhh yeahhhh i pay attention to their personal qualities and take them into consideration, but if they turn me on or not...overrides everything else. TERRIBLE RIGHT?!!! if only i was one of those girls who weren't affected by lust, then perhaps i could focus on homework and in class...rather than thinking about how "fine" this boy is..or plotting for my next sexcapade... or reading the sex bible `cosmopolitan` (i have a collection of this magazine) "/
E N V Y
i have nothing to say about this except i'm jealous. i'm jealous of the girl with all the boys. i'm jealous of the elite with all the money. i'm jealous of those who know EVERYONE. i'm jealous of those who alwayyyyys get what they want. i'm jealous of those who have a talent i wish that i had. i'm jealous of those whose lives are complete. and most of alllll i'm jealous of those who ARENT jealous ! gr... lol. but not to worry my friends, all of my jealousy motivates me to get to a point in my life where i am more than satisfied :]
lame? most definitely "/ lol
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
wrath, gluttony, lust, sloth, pride, envy, and greed . which sin is most applicable to you ?
so .. we describe lust as having a strong sexual desire for something , and as hard as it is to admit it , i commit this sin the most . three men are the cause of this, but never mistake me as the promiscuous type. this first guy . whew. he makes me weak with just the sound of his voice. before i was able to control this, but now its gotten out of hand. from his looks to his words, he's got me goin. his hair is longer than mines, and if he were to dye it green he'd look like a small , slender tree that has been written on with a sharpie by over 100 people. lol , it's ironic too because.. well , his favorite things are trees . he sings to me on occasion . haha.. some of my friends say he sounds like a dying cat but .. his voice takes me to a beautiful place. like a cotton feild with blue skies and dandelions that come up to my ankles , with my white summer dress on . he's a breath of fresh air. and i crave to hold him and embrace him . and although he's shorter than me , he measures up right to the place that craves him the mosstt. =x haha .
second guy ? he's a little more complex . i yearn for this cat everyyy nighhtt . for the past 18 years ive been getting myself ready to meet him . making sure that im worthy of his company . i know he gets around but.. it doesnt botherrr me , just as long as i get my turn . =] plus , half of the ones that be w. him dnt even treat him right ! so it's my calling to get in where i fit in . ive never worked this hard for attention from anyone else in my life ! =-O
this last guy is just the epitome of 'that nigga' . he gets it in ! all the ladies love and adore him .. even the fellas show him love [no homo tho . lol] . he takes yu to this new place of pure bliss , imagination and sound . lol sometimes .. he even does little tests to see who pays attention enough to notice some of the things he does. well i notice all the things yu do. all tht stuff in the background; even when you're fading away. and i just love it when you're around ! i would rather no one else be with me 24/7 but you . and you're always around when i need yu, boosting any state of mind i'm in. but i gotta admit.. yu HAVE been lacking lately. yu haven't been giving us admirers your all like he used to 'back in the day'. its alright baby, u'll come back around. =]
the names of these three lucky men ? yep , you've guessed it . wayne , success and r&b. so now the question is : do i really want to stop this sinning? as awful as it sounds, the answer is DEFINITELY no . imma long for these bad boys till thee end.
what a laamee right ? lol .. lame never looked so good. ;]
who got next ?
^thee gluttony sinner .
i press you up to my lips and lick . mm, sweeter than i remember before .i inhale you and the tingling of the spicy caresses my body .trust . confidence . comfort in you ... food . haha !
man, i love food . more than the average person actually . i have a deep problem with gluttony . i love food because it'll never do you wrong . it wont lie to you and deceive you . it will always be around when youre bored & in need of comfort . with so many spices, sugars, fruits, veggies, meats, breads, and sauces ... who wouldnt fall madly in love with food ? its the epitome of pleasure . i think i am a glutton because i dont gain weight . at 5'4 and three quarters and 118 pounds ... imma beast with the grub lol .i dont see the consequences, only the upside to food . food is my mistress no homo ... but it can get it . lol, dangle yams in my face & im your puppet .
someone , save me ...imma slave !! lame right ? lol .
who's up next cuhhhhs ?
so we all kno that i am always the first to get mad and the last one to get over it !
i have a huge anger problem and it is often the reason i get into altercations and it is also the reason i am hated by more people than i am loved by.. but i cnt really say that i care. i kno i should really chill sometimes and i feel like i have to a certain extend, but there will always be something in me that wont take any crap when it comes to me.my fam.or my friends. & if i cnt beat yo ass fair an square i got weapons on deck ! lmao ..
&I LOVE SEX !!!
lmao.. yes it complicates things and it is often the onlee thing i regret but its O-SO-GREAT !!! i have just made the decision to practice abstinence till marriage..simply because i feel like my life would be easier that way.. i need to be able to find somebody who loves me for me and not for my body. i know its easier said than done, but imma really try this time guys !lolz..
myyyyy tuurrrnnnnn.... ely on the screen .. lmao.
Sooooooo, sloth… (perfect bc mind you it took me more then a week to post this)
for those who dnt kno wat tht means: virtue of zeal or diligence, is that it represents the failure to utilize one's talents and gifts. So this applies to me.. most of the time this sin is related to laziness and stuff like tht.... y'all kno im def the laziest one. i could sleep and do nothing all day..lol. being lazy makes me happy(dnt judge me). ooohhh but dnt misjudge my abilities... im smarter then the average and i succeed in everything i put my mind to.. if its important to me.. i get the job done.. is tht the problem? am i so chill and laid back tht nothing is truely important to me?... or is it just tht im a laid back kinda person?... shoot i'll never figure it out.. its not tht important.. hahaha, talent waster? call me what you want.. but never doubt me.